Believe it or not, this makes a great illustration.
Christians sometimes (based on Isaiah 55:8-9) talk about how God's ways are higher than our ways & His thoughts are higher than our thoughts. That is true, although sometimes we think that God's ways are not reasonable, rational, logical, consistent, or coherent.
Sometimes I've described our ability to understand God's ways to the ability of an ant to understand computer technology. Maybe that's not the best way to to describe it.
A better way might be how the cat reacts to static electricity. She notices it but doesn't understand it. It stimulates & irritates her.
Ants don't even know that computer technology exists, but no one can convince the cat that static electricity doesn't exist. She just doesn't understand it.
That's the way God's ways are to us. We know He is real. We know He has ways of doing things. But sometimes we don't understand it. Sometimes we don't like it.
Sometimes we even rebel against it. We're kind of like the cat & the static electricity.
Keep fighting, kitty.
But Christian, trust God & His ways. Especially when you don't understand them. If you do, it (& He) will make sense one day.